Sunday, November 15, 2009

But of that day or that hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.

I have privately shared with some of you my personal struggles recently with "the wait", aka TW. TW was causing me immense stress. So much so that TW was consuming my every waking moment. TW was obliterating my relationship with my family. It was beyond ugly. I didn't want to plan or participate in anything except TW. Add to TW, I have recently begun to recover from "a flu" which led me into pneumonia.

Long story short, I realized that I could not continue living in TW. I have an awesome God who needs me. I have a husband and children who need me. I need me. SO, in order to change, I began to offer up a prayer every time my mind wandered to TW. I pray for 3 things.

1 - I pray for a mother somewhere in the world to not terminate her pregnancy. I pray that she find the courage, the strength and the resources to recognize the miracle that God has entrusted to her.
2 - I pray for a family somewhere in the world to recognize the spark of desire to adopt an orphan in themselves and to act on it.

3- I pray that God prepare the heart of an orphan to be ready for their adoption. That He calm their fears, that He has His mighty hand present while these precious children meet their new family. That He keep these children healthy and happy in their present situation.

At the end of each day, I am proud to remember all the prayers that have been offered up by me to our Mighty God for orphans. I am allowing myself to be excited each night that at the close of the day, I am one day closer to holding my daughter in my arms.

TW. I was excited at Mass today, when Father Straz read the following:
Mark 13: 24 - 32
24"But in those days, after that tribulation, the sun will be darkened, and the moon will not give its light,
25and the stars will be falling from heaven, and the powers in the heavens will be shaken.
26And then they will see the Son of man coming in clouds with great power and glory.
27And then he will send out the angels, and gather his elect from the four winds, from the ends of the earth to the ends of heaven.
28"From the fig tree learn its lesson: as soon as its branch becomes tender and puts forth its leaves, you know that summer is near.
29So also, when you see these things taking place, you know that he is near, at the very gates.
30Truly, I say to you, this generation will not pass away before all these things take place.
31Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will not pass away.
32"But of that day or that hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.

TW. When will it end? When will we travel? "But of that day or that hour no one knows, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father." Ha! God is GREAT! Father emphasized that while we wait - we need to pray and be prepared. Awesome! I am prepared AND I am praying!


Lindsey's mom said...

Big Hugs going out to you!! WE WILL GO!! Hang in there! God Bless!
Hopefully traveling with you,

connie said...

Those are amazing prayers...and the kind that bring peace as you wait. You WILL travel! It's so easy to get caught up in the weight and let it squeeze the life out of you (speaking from experience, I'm afraid!). But He has turned your focus to others. We are so excited for you and can't wait to follow along!

Madeleine said...

Excellent, excellent post!!

I needed that, too.

TW, you are now going to the foot of the cross.

And staying there!!

Gretchen said...

I loved your post.

I was where you are not too very long ago and I do know how consuming TW is. Now that I am at the other side, and we are finally home with our baby girl, I am greatful that I don't have the weight of TW hanging on me.

God is good, and I felt exactly they way that you are feeling...that it is not right to focus so much on TW. There is a life NOW that God wants you to live (and I know how hard it is to do that...but each day is an oppurtunity).

I will be praying for you and all of the other precious families that are still waiting. You will have your baby soon!

Lindsey's mom said...

HI Donna~~ I am wondering if I will get Article 5 this week since we were 3 day apart on our I800, you were 10/23 and me 10/26....I did call the agency and ask, had to leave a message. :)

Shawnstribe said...

Hugs from another Mommy from across the seas.
I pray that all your beautiful prayers are answered.
ps is your shop still open

Anonymous said...

Donna, A big hug to you!

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